My mom told me today that I was glowing when she saw me this weekend. She said she couldn’t take her eyes off my face. She mentioned it possibly being a result of my newfound contentment or just being happy to be home. It made me so happy to hear her say that! I’ve noticed the lack of joy in my life the past few months, part of that was a result of slacking with my quiet times. I was grieving that I didn’t think people good look at me and my life and know that I was a Christian. I think my countenance had something to do with that. But, I got that back on track with God and have been joyfully rediscovering His hand in my life. We have oodles of jasmine bushes at school, and it’s my favorite smell of all times. Just walking past those bushes reminds me to be thankful. God has blessed me in so many ways, including things as seemingly unimportant as a bush. I have found contentment in my life right now. I have peace in my singleness. I really don’t mind it. The only times I start to doubt is when I see other people enjoying relationships and I start to wonder if I’m missing out on something. But, I like being single. Life is good, and I’m happy with this place God has brought me to. I realized it’s okay to enjoy something different than what others enjoy and there’s nothing wrong with that. Not everything is perfect in my life, no. But today “I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation” to quote Paul. Of course I am human, and I am prone to freaking out about things. Money being one that raises a hesitation most often. But, I’ve been happy with the way I’ve caught it and stopped it as I say, “I trust you with this, God.” So, here’s to new beginnings, forgiveness, and joy. To loving life and feeling content. Count your blessings with me!
May 13, 2009...8:37 pm
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May 14, 2009 at 12:29 pm
Isa. 40:10–”‘Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’”
I wonder if the “anxiously look about you” could include looking at others like you were talking about.
May 14, 2009 at 12:31 pm
I got one of those emails people send around about a guy who picks up a penny when he sees one lying in the street and it reminds him every time of “in God we trust.” It sounds silly but I’ve done that ever since. I take it as a reminder from God to trust in Him and I quietly say the words to myself.