I’m finally done with my first year at CSUF! Had my last final today and breathed a sigh of relief. I think I’ve done very well at Fullerton. It took a couple semesters to get settled up here, but I feel more comfortable now than when I started. I am glad to be going home though. I have more friends and community in Oceanside.
My classes have been good this semester. It wasn’t the most fun group of classes I’ve ever taken with Bio, Math, Grammar, and Historical Dimension of Liberal Studies, but it was highlighted with the chance to work in a 3rd grade classroom for fieldwork as I prepare for the credential program. I kept hard at work with my courses all semester and by the end I would have been able to fail all my finals and still get A’s and B’s–always a good place to be! So, that took off a TON of pressure for finals week and I found myself far from stress. In fact, I spent a lot of my time during finals week finishing library books, making plans for redecorating my room, dreaming about New York, going to CA Adventure with friends, and going home to Oside randomly. It was so relaxing and enjoyable! I’m eagerly awaiting my grades. So far, I’ll be graduating with honors, which is amazing! Two more semesters to keep that up! I applied for my grad check last week–totally crazy that I’m already looking at graduation.
For the summer, I had planned to work at Tri-City Day Camp again, not having felt God moving me to do otherwise. Yesterday I got in touch with the director and she’s only been able to hire 7 people, myself not included due to low enrollment. I spent a tearful night asking God what I was supposed to do this summer as other places I’ve inquired haven’t gotten back to me. I told him I didn’t want to sit around all summer mooching off my parents, especially when I still have bills to pay even if I don’t buy anything new. Car insurance, cell phone, World Vision, Tithe. With the economy the way it is, I have no idea where I would even apply. It was very difficult to keep my mind on my math final that I was attempting to study for. I read my Bible that evening from Job–a man who had sunk into very low times but refused to curse God. I read my devotion book about teaching a bird to sing a certain tune and it isn’t able to do it fully until its cage is covered. Darkness brings the beauty of a song. I recited to myself Proverbs 3:5-6 and told God I trust him no matter what happens. When my stomach would clench with fear and anxiety, I pushed those emotions out and prayed out the words of the Proverb. “God, I trust you with all of my heart. I can’t possibly lean on my own understanding because I can’t see the future. I don’t know what’s going to happen. Your understanding is far greater than mine. I will acknowledge your ways and your plan in this entire situation. Thank you for your promise to direct my paths.” Praying this over and over has helped calm me and bring me peace. Times come that are a stuggle and we easily despair in our weakness. But when we are weak, He is strong. I sang this morning as I got ready to greet the day, “You are my strength when I am weak, You are the treasure that I seek, You are my all in all.” I am clinging to his promises. I called Moonlight today to check up on the status of my application there. My supervisor is meeting with her boss next week to discuss who they’ll be hiring. She said she wants to hire mostly returners since the theatre is new and it will require more training. Better to have some who are trained in the other areas already. Day Camp is not a for sure no until it starts on June 15th. I remembered that last year it took a while for parents to enroll their kids. They still have 3 weeks of school left and don’t always think that far ahead. But I am praying that God’s will be done with both jobs. Apart from that I’ll be taking an online health class, adventuring off to New York with Nicole to do exciting things like kayak on the Hudson River, attend a yoga class in Bryant Park, see Mary Poppins on Broadway and go backstage after the show, visit the Today Show and see Taylor Swift, watch Hillsong at the Brooklyn Tabernacle, and much more! I will also be putting together the Everything Lifehouse Skit at my church, studying for my next CSET exam in July, singing at Seven24, and maybe even leading worship a bit at our new church plant with Generation. I would also like to make progress on decorating my bedroom, scrapbooking, and learning a new piano song. Lots of plans! You know me, I like to be busy. I hope to hang out with all you lovely people too. 
All in all, a strong school year, a contented heart with peace in the situation God has brought me with both singleness and job provision, and a hopeful look to the summer.
